What about the rest?

So as my check in date is rapidly approaching and all my friends are beginning to leave I'm starting to realize how much I'm leaving behind... my family, my friends all the people closest to me really. I won't even have the comfort of knowing that Abbie's just across campus, something I've been able to be assured of since freshman year of highschool. It is a comfort to know that at least the people I'm leaving I can still talk to but what about the  experiences? I can't stop thinking about everything else I'm going to miss, this is the first fall in five years that I won't have Colorguard, or fall football, I won't even have NC State which trust me I'm going to miss horribly. Everyone is telling me that I'm going to Disney and I'll have the time of my life which of course I know is true. They're all right I should be excited, but even as I begin to take this huge adventure, its difficult to ignore that little voice in the back of my head that tells me I won't be among the NC State students celebrating our (sure) victory over UNC or even one of the stressed students in the library cramming before midterms (ok maybe I won't really miss that).

Ok, all that said I feel like I'm ready to leave and I am extremely excited to begin what is so far the biggest adventure of my life. It's just hard to take this leap of faith into the unknown and brand new. I know its just cold feet, it's always scary venturing into a world that you don't know especially when you're so happy in the one you're already in and I've had just enough time to get completely comfortable at State. Well ready or not the most exciting time of my life starts in 11 days...